well, i've got 12 weeks left...blows my mind really.

 

luckily i've had a pretty decent pregnancy again this time.  maybe it's all about your perspective, but people keep asking me "how are you feeling?"  "don't you hate it?"  "it's got to be tough, eh?"  i just respond with "i feel great - how do you feel?"  i think for two reasons...one: i don't like attention, so i say dorky things when focused on and two: i signed up for this and i'm trying to eat right/exercise/etc.  i think i feel normal bc i take care of myself.  i think people prefer to hear that it's some big drama, so i'm disappointing them when i don't provide the drama.  oh well...is what it is.

 

anyway, with that said, here are the things i really miss and am looking forward to in ~12 weeks...

 

1) pants that don't fall down. pants with buttons. belts. basically, to have the option to not only wear elastic wasteband pants.

2) wine.  i am a huge fan of a glass of wine with dinner or when relaxing.  it's hard for me now to sit down with a great pasta dinner or a book and not have a glass.

3) beer.  this gets it's own line because beer is a sports/social hang out thing for me.  it's hard to not watch football <insert any sport here> without beer.  i miss the refreshing feeling of opening a cold beer and drinking the first long sip so that my eyes water.  no, i don't have issues...it's true, and you know what i'm talking about.

4) liquor.  yes, liquor also gets it's own category...and fine, maybe i have some issues.  there's something about not being able to have that mixed drink once in a great while.  i think i miss margaritas, mojitos, and baileys the most.

5) the gym.  actually, i still go to the gym once a week.  the looks i get are rather distracting...i think i'd get less looks if i literally walked in with a bullseye on my face.  i know it's bc you don't see many pregnant chicks at the gym, but it comes back to the attention thing.  when i go to the gym, i like to do my thing and not be starred at...it's hard to not feel self-conscious when people are starring at you.  plus, it's VERY hard for me to be on a treadmill, walking, and have people next to me in an all out sprint.  i want to turn to them and say..."if i wasn't knocked up, i'd probably be competing with you stride for stride and i wouldn't be walking at 3.3, unable to physically walk faster...just so you know."

6) soft cheeses.  anyone that knows me, knows i LOVE cheese.  well, it's hard for me to have to avoid all the brie, blue cheese, gorgonzola, etc...very hard.  seriously, just writing that line, my mouth is watering.

 

two cool things that stand out in my mind about being pregnant this time around...

1) alien movement.  it is really weird to get kicked from the inside.  the time it's the hardest is in meetings at work.  i literally feel like she's giving me a pap-smear or that she's going to shove one of her feet through my stomach/shirt for all to see.  it's hard to stay focused and not think..."did anyone just see my shirt jump?"  but, the cool part is feeling that movement when no one else really has any idea.

2) planning.  i'm a planner...most folks know this about me.  last time around i was very much into planning every moment of how to make it all perfect.  this time is different, as i have a completely better/healthier perspective by just embracing and rolling with whatever comes.  with that said, i'm still a planner...so, now that has morphed into more of a daydream approach...like, what will she be like...what will i teach her as a female...how will i approach never holding her back...etc.  now, i do think these things with Aiden, but it seems different with a girl...i feel like more responsibility is on me to make sure she's confident and secure with herself.  it's a girl thing...hard to explain.

 

ok...so there are the 12-weeks-to-go pregger thoughts...and here is the photo documentation.  don't worry, there won't be any more pictures as i'd like to spare myself and everyone else from any further visuals.